Last night, I deleted my photography portfolio. I deleted all but a few of my photos from my computer. I also canceled my Adobe Photography Plan.
I have been thinking about it for months.
In that time, I took my camera out once or twice. I didn't miss it. I had grown tired of shooting the same things over and over. My photography required me to see new and different places and things. My anxiety had limited that for a decade. The pandemic crushed it.
Since I wasn't using my camera, I wasn't using the Adobe tools either. I wasn't using them enough compared to the subscription plan.
I had kept those tools because they were professional tools. I wanted to run in the same league as professional photographers. I could have been good too. I composed and processed better than a wine mom with a desk in the family room and a shingle on Squarespace.
I refused to work as a professional, though. I have friends who have a studio and do portrait work for a living. I wouldn't compete with them because my circumstances depend upon their livelihood.
So, if you came here looking for photos, you won't find any for now. I know they will show up, but they won't be photos looking for an audience. They'll be photos serving another purpose.